To the Law of Attraction Sceptic

I remember learning in psychology all about an external and internal locus of control and being quite simply flabbergasted. What category did I fit into? To put it simply: an external locus is believing in luck and fate, and outside forces determining what happens to you. An internal locus is a more hands on approach. It says “I’m in control of my future, I can handle and dictate anything flown in my direction!” 

I never knew what one I wanted to be more, as there’s always this desire to be strong and in charge of your own life. 

When I tell people that I believe in the Law of Attraction, they look at me like I’m crazy. At the moment I’m reading a scroll three times a day in order to bring success and prosperity my way. It’s called “The Greatest Secret in the World” by Og Mandino and it claims that putting time aside each day to read and register the words in front of you will magically manifest your desires and bring forth monumental change! 

So far I feel as though it’s really benefiting my life. When I skip this, my day is never as successful. Maybe this is psychological, maybe I am a complete and utter sucker. Maybe I’m a witch! Ha. 

I don’t know, but I know this - the Law of Attraction isn’t a passive or lazy choice that says “take the steering wheel Universe! I’m too meek to drive!” as many type A characters may argue. Believe it or not you can be both strong willed and a believer in abstract ideas! 

To me, it is as active and hands on as an external locus as it takes serious willpower to train your brain. I’m teaching my self a new mindset everyday, because I want as much power as possible over what happens in my life. 

It’s not me resigning and watching life’s events unfold in front of me... I’m consciously acting on making the most out of every stage of my day. (Three times a day!)

It could be considered foolish to give a book such power in deciding my day, but I’d be foolish to not test my strength in giving myself the best possible chance of a brilliant day. 

It shows power of mind to be open to new ideas, and an open minded person is a successful person. 

I hope your day is full of success, however you choose to go and get it!

Xx

Surfing the Waves

So it's currently 1:40pm and I just can't sleep so what better thing to do than write ay? Hopefully getting some of the overwhelming thoughts out of my brain and on to paper will allow me to drift off easier haha. I'm feeling so stressed with schoolwork at the moment but I am so awful as I'll panic about it but then I don't do anything about it for ages as I'm so lazy. Well I'm not lazy, I just have no motivation for things that don't get my juices flowing yaknow... I have no interest or passion for school right now so I'm a serious procrastinator. The trouble with that though is I'm also a serious worrier, to the point where I can't sleep at night knowing I have a massive to do list. It just stares at me and tantalises me all night and tonight was one of those nights. I felt so guilty that I got up out of bed at 11pm and started some artwork. I actually surprisingly love working through the night, there's something so calming about being the only one awake, I feel like I am just a drop in the ocean and that I can chill out and go on through the whole night if I have to as for some strange reason time seems everlasting in the night compared to the day. A quote I read which I think is so true is something along the lines of "it is better to go to bed exhausted with acheivements, then go to bed worried with unfinished tasks". I am feeling so relieved right now that I can mentally scribble out a section of my list in my brain, that's right I'm less of a "tick off" and more of a serial killer scribbler kinda girl. So much more satisfying to watch the evil thing that has caused so much stress be ripped to shreds from the earth mwahahahahahaha. Saying this though, there's one thing so defeating about getting rid of tasks and that is that you're never complete. I'm all for emptying my plate but it never stays empty forever as before you know it, it's piled up again like a 2nd round at an all inclusive buffet. What I mean by this is that as hard as it is you've got to try not to get stressed out by the errands in your life as in retrospection they are temporary and will soon be replaced by something newer and bigger. So I guess you've got to stop avoiding the titanic waves coming your way and learn to surf them. Haha I made that up myself, I do love a water metaphor. The real peace of mind comes from just accepting and learning to live in the present instead of constantly waiting for the future. I'm grateful for all of this boring revison and time consuming artwork for my exam as it is also a time I am young and have my whole life ahead of me. It's most likely future me will wish to go back to this time at some point so I'll embrace it as best as I can.

Anyway, I'm going to attempt to catch some sleep now. Who am I kidding it's all still so stressful and I'll probably be awake for another 2 hours yet!!!!

Nunight, Lily x 

Ditching The Frame

Hey guys! How has your week been? I'm so relieved it's the weekend and I'm looking forward to just resting as I feel so exhausted at the moment. I've been having a no makeup week at school which is scary in a way as makeup can be a real comfort blanket and confidence booster for me and I'm sure most other girls. Sure I feel ugly and exposed (like a peeled potato) but at the same time there's something so gratifying about showing people exactly what I am. There is also no better inner peace than accepting and embracing yourself naturally, I saw a lovely quote today comparing people to artwork and it got me thinking... Not all of our frames are perfectly kept or flawless but it's the inside of the frame that truly encapsulates people. Also, aren't frames just restricting and confining? Every once in a while you need to just be fearless and break free. Who else is tired of comforming?! 

Love Lily xxx